Thats what i long for.
Before you continue to read my post from here.. I would first like you to know that everything I wrote is based on reality and of my true feelings.. Same goes to every posts that have been and will be published in this blog.. You may feel a little uncomfortable or whatsoever after reading my post, hence I would like to advice that next time before you even click on my URL, say a little prayer that the spirit of peace and understanding will fill your heart and mind.. It helpes, God bless..
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Let the Cross draws man to You..
"Oh, how many times have I broken Your heart? Still You forgive....."
As the song continued to play, the presence of God fall stronger in my room.. And you would know when the Holy Spirit touch your heart -its when you start tearing..
I went on my knee and this time round, I really cried out to God.. I was in so much of agony, aggravation and resentment that I could no longer put up the strong front.. I felt so weak in His presence..
One thing which really amazed me about Jesus is, He wants me to know that He really loves me..
At times when I look back at my life, recalled all the things that I had done which were not pleasing to Him, yet He still forgives.. When times I felt my life was miserable and dreadful, He came and gave me hopes.. As a result of Him, I became stronger and loves Him even more.. However, we are all humans and we do make mistakes.. For that includes me..
Honestly these past weeks had been tough for me.. Although I might have the everything-is-alright-because- there-is-still-chocolates-in-this-world-for-me-to-eat expression on my face, there was a battle in my heart -a battle between faith and fear.. Yes, I felt like giving up, throwing the white flag at Jesus and say, "I want to quit! I have sinned.. So forget about me.." Nonetheless, He is good.. That moment when I went on my knees and cried out to Jesus, I heard Him said, "Don't let Me go.. Let Me be there with you to go through everything with you.." My heart suddenly sank, but I felt so, so loved..
Talking about this, I realised that Jesus knows how to love me the best.. What do I mean? Well, I can say that He is indeed the best lover anyone can ever ask for.. In the world, mostly all gals fall for guy's sweet flattering.. Yet how many knows that nothing can be compared to His unconditional love, amen?!
He knows how to make me feel weak, softened and just go ga-ga over Him.. Overall, Jesus is a romantic guy..
Hence, for Him I told myself that I have to continue.. No matter how tough the going may get, to Him I can always cling on.. Even if the whole world turn against me, I know that I know, He will never leave me nor forsake me..
Every time when you feel condemned, when you feel that everyone is against you, when you feel like forsaking everyone including yourself.. Turn to the Cross and tell yourself, "Because of that one Man, I can never feel unworthy anymore.."
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[[转身的时候]]
赖雅妍
Well, obviously this is a contemporary song, my favourite too.. I remember before the plane took off from Jakarta airport, I was hearing this song and my mind was full of him.. I really did not bear to leave.. So the moment the plane started to accelerate and finally take off, I cried like as if I will never ever see him again.. It was quite dumb though -everyone was looking at me..
I'm glad that most probably [80%] I will be going back soon.. Not because I can't wait to see him -all I want now is rest, a break from everything.. I'm not feeling spiritually dry, just maybe is my heart and my mind.. For someone like me, don't tell me not to be emotional or let anything or anyone to affect me.. If it easier to say than to be done.. I'll be most glad for you to say some more.. I love to travel, so please do not stop me..
So, this time round, I will be a good gal and try not to pester him to go shopping with me everyday.. It will be that or he is coming in April.. I can't wait!!
If I say I don't love you anymore.. I don't think I'm lying..
I can destroy the relationship between us anytime, anywhere ..
But I know, my heart will break again..
I remember I drew this somewhere last year.. I would never forget that day..
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[[PS: I Love You]]
Aurthor" Cecelia Ahern
Ahhh... I can't wait for this movie to be shown in Singapore.. I love the book and I know I am gonna enjoy the movie very much.. It is a extrememly touching story, thus it was the first book which I ended crying after reading each chapters.. And I am so going to buy her other books and read.. =D
With love,
Shavonne. (:
Shavonne. (:
