Thats what i long for.
Thank you.
Oh.. I just realised people are still reading my blog when i have made it private and only 2 people knew my new blog URL. Oh well, its alright. I've decided to change it back to a public one and this is my new blog. =)
Yet same rule still applies -If you do not come here with a open heart, I would encourage you to leave this page because the contents written are not here to please you but they are based on facts and my feelings.
So, enjoy. =)
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My greatest honour is to serve You, my Lord and my King.
This season has been really tough for me. I have never felt so discouraged, limited and helpless in my walk with Him so far. Yet this time round, i felt so pressed in every corner that i could not moved, yet He is not "letting me go". He continued to push me even harder, bring me further until I realised, I am not that impotent after all. He gave me a chance to test myself out, whether I would persist on or quit. Yes, there were times when I cried out to Him saying, "Lord, Why? Why are You still pushing me even harder when You know I could not go on anymore?!" He simply replied, "Yes, because I know you."
I do not understand why He said that until during service when our church sang the new worship song, "Forever". The reason to why He kept on pushing me is because He knows I have not reach my limit, I have not come to a place where my heart will say, "I give up". He knows I am a strong person and all I need, is just a little push. And one thing I realised, I have always been like that since I was young.
On the same day, as the whole church were praying, He brought me back to my past. I saw visions of myself when I was only a 6 years old kid, sitting in one corner of my previous children church, tearing as I watched the movie of Jesus Christ. And without fail, every single week, I would attend my children's church service and the thing was, I always travelled to my church, alone. My mum would just dropped me at the MRT station and then I was on my own. A 6 years old kid like me, knowing nothing, just wanna follow Him.
And then I saw myself when I was 13 years old, queuing up for an adult service in Suntect, alone. Almost every services I went, I was always alone, not together with a CG or knowing anyone there. As many of you all should know, when people go for alter call in our church [CHC], usually they are accompanied by friends, relatives or one of the CG members. Yet I remember for myself, the very first time when I dedicated my life to Him, I was alone and I was only 13 years old sitting among 1000 plus of strangers. It took me a lot of courage to lift up my hands and doubled of my nerves to walk down to the stage to be prayed for.
After which, there were a lot of flashbacks of times when I fell, times when I cried out, "Where are You God, why is this happening to me?!" and times when I turned my back against Him. Yet after each time, I would only draw myself closer to Him. And then I heard Him saying, "I do not look at your outward appearance nor your actions, I only look at your heart and I see faithfulness and boldness and that is why, I chose you."
Every christians have a love story with Him, to tell. I have mine and I can assure you, my story is not a simple one but full of adventures, excitements and never forgetting the heartaches and times when we cried together.
So right now, I can see and like what my sister has told me, God is giving me opportunities to train myself to be a great leader. I am right now taking leadership position in my CG, in my church school cluster and my CCA. Yes, its tough and tiring.
But! Never give up -is my way of a warrior of God. [Same saying as Naruto. Oh I love watching Naruto Anime.] =)
Before and Now. =)
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Bukan Cinta Biasa.
Hardly had the time to chat with my very loved yet annoying and fat cousin for quite some time. Both of us have been very busy lately and I could only call him once a week. Anyway, I was chatting with him on the phone last night and he was so............... Irritating.
I'm not sure if this is in our bloodline or what but both of us like to boast about people who fancy us but he is worst lah yea. Haha!! So, he was telling me that he is going to marry NaNa, his currently girlfriend in 2 years time which means I will be 19.
And this thought just came into my mind -If I can bring someone along with me to Jakarta to attend his wedding, who would I want to bring or should I say, who is willing? Be it a girl or boy. Well, I would really like to bring my future boyfriend la. HAHAHA!!!
And I jokingly concluded that I will go there and find one Indo boyfriend. Surprisingly, he encouraged me to find a Singaporean boyfriend instead because they are better. Omg!! Really meh?! Alright, then I will find someone who knows how to speak Bahasa, thus he can teach me. HAHA!! I really want to leran to speak Bahasa lah.
It is good that he is getting married, I am happy for him, but yea... I will miss him. Well, another 2 years I can officially be with my boyfriend le. Haha..
Let me share with you about the the guy of my dream. =)
First impression counts a lot for me, but usually I will first take notice of these few things.
1. His hair. -His hair style has to be my liking.
2. His face. -How well is his facial care.
3. His sense of dressing. -I fancy guys who know how to dress well.
4. His teeth. -Need not to be straight but must be clean and not full of plagues.
5. His nails. -Oh, I do not like guys with long fingernails.
6. Whether He is a gentleman or not. -I dislike wimps.
7. Any piercing -I fancy guys who pierce their left ear, other than that, no where.
Well, most importantly, I cannot have a boyfriend who is more emotional than me, cannot lead me and has no purposes in his life. I am starting to fancy smart, geeky and naughty guys right now. Haha!!
Oh~~~ Lee Wan~~~ My Lee wan oppa~~~ He is my favourite korean actor now. =D
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[Tree of Heaven MV]
Lee Wan~~~~~~~~
If I just can have a boyfriend like Lee Wan.. Handsome, tall, strong built and oh... I love his smile.. Aw......
Oh.. I just realised people are still reading my blog when i have made it private and only 2 people knew my new blog URL. Oh well, its alright. I've decided to change it back to a public one and this is my new blog. =)
Yet same rule still applies -If you do not come here with a open heart, I would encourage you to leave this page because the contents written are not here to please you but they are based on facts and my feelings.
So, enjoy. =)
___________________________________________
My greatest honour is to serve You, my Lord and my King.
This season has been really tough for me. I have never felt so discouraged, limited and helpless in my walk with Him so far. Yet this time round, i felt so pressed in every corner that i could not moved, yet He is not "letting me go". He continued to push me even harder, bring me further until I realised, I am not that impotent after all. He gave me a chance to test myself out, whether I would persist on or quit. Yes, there were times when I cried out to Him saying, "Lord, Why? Why are You still pushing me even harder when You know I could not go on anymore?!" He simply replied, "Yes, because I know you."
I do not understand why He said that until during service when our church sang the new worship song, "Forever". The reason to why He kept on pushing me is because He knows I have not reach my limit, I have not come to a place where my heart will say, "I give up". He knows I am a strong person and all I need, is just a little push. And one thing I realised, I have always been like that since I was young.
On the same day, as the whole church were praying, He brought me back to my past. I saw visions of myself when I was only a 6 years old kid, sitting in one corner of my previous children church, tearing as I watched the movie of Jesus Christ. And without fail, every single week, I would attend my children's church service and the thing was, I always travelled to my church, alone. My mum would just dropped me at the MRT station and then I was on my own. A 6 years old kid like me, knowing nothing, just wanna follow Him.
And then I saw myself when I was 13 years old, queuing up for an adult service in Suntect, alone. Almost every services I went, I was always alone, not together with a CG or knowing anyone there. As many of you all should know, when people go for alter call in our church [CHC], usually they are accompanied by friends, relatives or one of the CG members. Yet I remember for myself, the very first time when I dedicated my life to Him, I was alone and I was only 13 years old sitting among 1000 plus of strangers. It took me a lot of courage to lift up my hands and doubled of my nerves to walk down to the stage to be prayed for.
After which, there were a lot of flashbacks of times when I fell, times when I cried out, "Where are You God, why is this happening to me?!" and times when I turned my back against Him. Yet after each time, I would only draw myself closer to Him. And then I heard Him saying, "I do not look at your outward appearance nor your actions, I only look at your heart and I see faithfulness and boldness and that is why, I chose you."
Every christians have a love story with Him, to tell. I have mine and I can assure you, my story is not a simple one but full of adventures, excitements and never forgetting the heartaches and times when we cried together.
So right now, I can see and like what my sister has told me, God is giving me opportunities to train myself to be a great leader. I am right now taking leadership position in my CG, in my church school cluster and my CCA. Yes, its tough and tiring.
But! Never give up -is my way of a warrior of God. [Same saying as Naruto. Oh I love watching Naruto Anime.] =)
Before and Now. =)
__________________________________________
Bukan Cinta Biasa.
Hardly had the time to chat with my very loved yet annoying and fat cousin for quite some time. Both of us have been very busy lately and I could only call him once a week. Anyway, I was chatting with him on the phone last night and he was so............... Irritating.
I'm not sure if this is in our bloodline or what but both of us like to boast about people who fancy us but he is worst lah yea. Haha!! So, he was telling me that he is going to marry NaNa, his currently girlfriend in 2 years time which means I will be 19.
And this thought just came into my mind -If I can bring someone along with me to Jakarta to attend his wedding, who would I want to bring or should I say, who is willing? Be it a girl or boy. Well, I would really like to bring my future boyfriend la. HAHAHA!!!
And I jokingly concluded that I will go there and find one Indo boyfriend. Surprisingly, he encouraged me to find a Singaporean boyfriend instead because they are better. Omg!! Really meh?! Alright, then I will find someone who knows how to speak Bahasa, thus he can teach me. HAHA!! I really want to leran to speak Bahasa lah.
It is good that he is getting married, I am happy for him, but yea... I will miss him. Well, another 2 years I can officially be with my boyfriend le. Haha..
Let me share with you about the the guy of my dream. =)
First impression counts a lot for me, but usually I will first take notice of these few things.
1. His hair. -His hair style has to be my liking.
2. His face. -How well is his facial care.
3. His sense of dressing. -I fancy guys who know how to dress well.
4. His teeth. -Need not to be straight but must be clean and not full of plagues.
5. His nails. -Oh, I do not like guys with long fingernails.
6. Whether He is a gentleman or not. -I dislike wimps.
7. Any piercing -I fancy guys who pierce their left ear, other than that, no where.
Well, most importantly, I cannot have a boyfriend who is more emotional than me, cannot lead me and has no purposes in his life. I am starting to fancy smart, geeky and naughty guys right now. Haha!!
Oh~~~ Lee Wan~~~ My Lee wan oppa~~~ He is my favourite korean actor now. =D
_________________________________________
[Tree of Heaven MV]
Lee Wan~~~~~~~~
If I just can have a boyfriend like Lee Wan.. Handsome, tall, strong built and oh... I love his smile.. Aw......
With love,
Shavonne. (:
Shavonne. (:
Thats what i long for.
The Five Love Languages
My primary love language is probablyWords of Affirmation
with a secondary love language being
Quality Time.
Complete set of results
| Words of Affirmation: | 10 | |
| Quality Time: | 9 | |
| Acts of Service: | 7 | |
| Physical Touch: | 3 | |
| Receiving Gifts: | 1 |
Information
Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.Take the quiz
With love,
Shavonne. (:
Shavonne. (:
