Take me deeper in love with You.

Thats what i long for.

Time to do something extraordinary for God..

On Sunday, 4 February, 2007, I've made a decision that I really want to take up this challenge and let God take me to whole new levels of spiritual maturity, discipline and communication..
The fact is, it will NOT be easy..

First of all, making of this decision is not completed without rivers of tears, tons of falling and standing ups, prayers.. And most importantly, knowing that I have to lay down my life for God and His people which means to obey and sacrifice..
Ever since I became a CHC member, I always dream that I can become a CG helper.. Remember what I said, "I always dream that I can.".. Yes, it has been one year since I joined the church, but it is only until recently, God showed me that I was always being emotion-driven..
There would be times that I would say, "Yes God, I want to become a CG helper.. I want to do something for the CG.. I want to be a spirit-filled and anointed helper.." Yet, when my spirit ran dry, I would just allow the fire of becoming a CG helper in me, to distinguish.. Hence, it became like a routine for me.. And mind you, routines are mundane..

However, praise be to God that He brought people into my life to help me.. Now, I finally understood what is emotion-driven and conviction-driven..
I do not want to be controlled by my emotions.. When my emotions are high, I will be so on fire.. And when they are not, I will go back to my old ways.. Seriously, it makes me feel sick at times..
After what I have learnt from the teachings and sharing just beginning of this year, I decided to make everything I do, be a conviction..

You will succeed in everything you do when you do it out of passion..

Likewise for my dream, to be a worship leader.. Although I have not join choir ministry, singing has always been my greatest passion, followed by dance.. Thus, I want to make it a conviction that I want to be a choir member and to really shine in my ministry.. And I know, God is working on it now..

Once I heard a great preacher said this, "If you want to achieve something bigger, your sacrifice has ought to be bigger.." Yea, it is true.. For example you want to be a world-class dancer, the time, energy and even your social life has to be sacrificed.. Isn't this something most typical people will not want to do? They dream big, but they do not want to do anything about it.. What is the result? Nothing -there is no even a start..

If you want to be someone extraordinary, your sacrifice has to extraordinary too..

Thus, right now I am training myself to let go of things which I fear to lose.. There is no point holding on to it, if it hinders your walk with God, your dream and purpose in life.. Remember, if you give God all your desires and seek first the Kingdom of God, He will bless you more than you can imagine..

I have a dream to chase, a purpose to live.. I will not allow anything or anyone to put me down, to rob me away from finishing my race.. I want to win my prize..

Love,
Shavonne. (:
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[[Now is the time]]
Delirious?

My all time favourite praise song.. =D

With love,
Shavonne. (: