Thats what i long for.
You heard my cry, oh Lord..Who loves me more than He does? No one..
Who understands me more than He does? No one..
Who is willing to die for me more than He does? No one..
And who is more ready to walk with Him for the rest of her life? That is me..
As some people may know, I work like a supervisor of the kids at my work place.. Hence, I get to interact with children a lot and of course, their parents..
Beside learning how to communicate with children better, knowing their character, somehow God has showed something He longs for me to do it, all the time..
Each time when I saw a kid fall, I noticed the first thing she would do beside weeping, was to run straight to her parent and cried out, "Daddy, Daddy.. I fell down and its painful.." And her father would just hug her and say, "Its alright, darling.. I'm here.. The pain will go away.." Every time when I see this scenario, my heart just cries out for God more..
Imagine the kid can just run into her father's embrace as and when she likes, knowing her father will always be there.. Knowing she can find love, comfort and security from him.. Knowing that he, is her faithful father.. And by some means, I know God is trying to tell me that I can do the same thing, to Him too..
To Him, I'm His child, His beloved child.. I have the right to show my weaknesses in front of Him, to cry, to vent my anger, and He will still stay by my side.. No matter what happens, He will still protect me..
But why? I do not know.. What I know is that He loves me so much that He is willing to sacrifice His only Son on the cross for me..
There is one thing I want to share with everyone who is reading my post now.. This thing may not feel anything to you, yet for me, it means a lot..
"Shavonne" is my Christian name which I gave for myself after my baptizum, last year.. And I am already very used to people calling me by that name.. However I realised that God never call me by that name.. Instead, He calls me by my real name, "Li Fang".. I do not know why, but each time when I hear Him calling me, "Li Fang, Li Fang..", I feel so close to Him, so loved.. I know, I am created just like "Li Fang" and He loves me just as I am..
"you are not a mistake.. you were born for a reason.. And the reason is to experience My unconditional love for you.." This what I heard from Him when once, I wanted to leave this world..With love,Shavonne. (:______________________________________________________
[[All for love]]
Hillsongs.
I was sitting down on a chair while the CD player played this song.. And suddenly I began to tear as I heard the sentence, "Oh how many times have I broken Your heart, but still You forgive.."
How wonderful is my Daddy, right? __________________________________________________
[[Your love]]
Written by Shavonne.Verse 1:When times seem so difficult to move on,
You came and gave me a little push..
When times I fell so deep,
You came and lifted me up high..
Brigde:
Who am I to deserve all these?
Yet You came and set me free..
Chorus:
You give all Your love,
Without any questions,
Without any demands in return..
For all Your love,
Many nations cried out,
For all Your love,
My sin and shame is taken away..
You are everything that I need..
Verse 2:
When times I turn my back against You,
You stay and wait for my return..
When times my desires seem to gain control,
You remain faithful and forever being so merciful..
Ending:
I am captivated by Your love,
Surrounding me in Your embrace..
What I long for,Is You.. With love,
Shavonne. (:
