Thats what i long for.
Draw strength from Me, alone.It's You who make me stronger
I need You more than ever
You're the reason why I'm singing for You
It's You who create the wonders
In all my days of struggles
It's Your love that surrounds my whole worldI could not take it any longer, my heart cried out to Him once more. This time He rebuked me by saying, "Why are you drawing strength from man? Draw strength from Me, alone."
Then the Holy Spirit gave a vision of me being a light bulb, man being the generators and God as the power supply, main source. There will times when the generators will break down and fail to produce energy, yet the main power supply never fails. He made me realised that I have depended on man too much that when they failed me, I would be affected.
It is not wrong to receive support and strength from people around you, from the people of God. However, I went overboard that when I do not get what I want, my emotions would then take control of me. And it was this time that I finally understand how weak we humans are and how awesome He is.
Have you ever heard people saying, "I'm sick of you, I'm sick of your attitude, I'm sick of you repeating the same mistake. I give up on you."? It is quite depressing if someone close to you, say those words to you. Well, now I know how strong He is. Remember what I wrote in my previous entry about Him saying that He would never give up on me. At that moment after He spoke to me, my eyes just opened and saw a wonderful truth.
Man can never be strong as Him, man can never be as patience, compassionate and forgiving compared to Him. Thus, I made a conviction that when man fails me, I should not be upset but turn to Him, cast all my emotions on Him because He never fails me.
My greatest desire is to really love people with a heart exactly like Jesus. So pure, so simple.
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What would you say to me, if we have never met before.Personally, I know that I am a emotional person and I enjoy talking about love, watching about love and listening about love.
So do not bother to tell me not to watch love stories, listening to love songs or even think about love. Everyone is different and we do have our own likings, attitudes and beliefs.
I really do want to go through a romantic courtship like one of those Korean dramas. It may sound very "drama", naive to you people. Yet to me, it takes two really strong hearts and love for each other to go all the painful obstacles. And through them, both hearts will grow closer and know they really need eah other.
I do not just want to get into a relationship so simply by having interest in each other, then get closer and maybe marrying in the end. Everything seems so smooth sailing.
No, thats just not me. Sorry. I want something more.
And I told a lot of people before, I need someone who can love me and also my imperfections.
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[[I'll take the tears]]
A1
How is it now that I can tell you I love you?
How is it only now that it's too late?
What can I do, the love that we had is torn in two?
so you'll take the .smiles from all of our years,
I'll take the tears When I can I tell you tha, I love you?With love,
Shavonne. (:
