Thats what i long for.
i choose to trust in His goodness.
"Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven." [Matt 5:16]This emerge 2007 had been a great breakthrough and experience for me. From POS, to my ministry and my spiritual walk with God. I never know it can be so much of fun.
The thing that impacted me the most is when I saw how and what Sun has been doing for the people in China. She is so full of compassion and desire for the people. As I watched the video, I teared because I really felt the joy in those children's heart.
I asked God, "Would You use me like how You used Sun to make a difference in so many people's live?"
Sun has always been my role model, a woman who is truly after God's own heart. Yes, I do want to be someone like her -having such a good career, good family and always gaining favour from everyone. However, what matters to me most, is her heart, her love for the people out in the world.
In the past when I just started growing up in church as a young christian, the fire in me is always burning for God. I am always thinking of how I can become a more spiritual person and what I can do for the Kingdom of God. Not saying that the fire in me has stopped burning, but I realised it is burning even stronger now. For God and for people.
These past 4 months, I saw how God brought me from glory to glory, although at the same time I faced a lot of challengers.
The greatest challenge I believe God has placed in my life currently, is how to love people unconditionally. Grew up not knowing what is the real meaning of love, God asked me if I can love people like how Jesus loves the people. It is tough, no doubt, because all man are selfish. Being someone like Jesus, like Sun, having such a big heart for the people is what I always wanted. Some people may think that it is because they are famous, so well-like, thus I want to be like them. No, what for? Fame does not have a eternal value, you do not bring it to Heaven when you die. Only your character and attitude will follow you where ever you go.
The teachings of the Beatitudes by Pastor Kong have impacted me a lot and it definitely brought me closer to God. Being broken and meek towards Him is what I yearn to do. It is difficult and painful, but I will press on. I want to His name being glorified by my good works. "What is the thing you want to change in society?"
Personally, I feel that there is a need to have more love and respect for one another in the society. Be it bosses to employees and the other way round, children to their parents and the other way round and even religious to religious. If there is love, there will be peace. And love is much less painful than hate. So why not choose to love?____________________________________________
Beautifully Broken.I will leaving for Jakarta in 3 days time. Oh.. Ain't you guys gonna miss me?? Haha.. I know a lot of people will.
But before I go, I just want to say a "BIG THANK YOU" to someone who is always there for me to lend a helping hand. And that person is none other than.... *Drum rolls* DREW HUANG!!!
Haha.. Cool huh?! Well, if its not for him, I will not be where I am right now. And i sincerely apologized for all the shits i threw at him when i was in my moods and all the nagging. I never know i can still be a great influence to him despite all those bad times. Haha.. Through His grace yea..
Well, but I feel that he has went through a lot with me especially when I am in my firm mode. Sometimes I feel a little guilty after correcting him and asking him to change to be a wiser man of God. Surprisingly, he listened. Haha..
Hence, I just wanna say..
"Drew, thank you for being such a good friend, brother and listener to me. I have not done much for you but you indeed have done a lot for me. I will always remember you and how our friendship is built where ever I go. Continue to grow in the Lord even when you are in NS. Just remember the song which I have dedicated to you, sang by Sun. Whenever you need me, I will be there to listen.."
Left alone, staying in a room full of memories.
Sudden loneliness, too much pushiness.
Can't hold on to the weight of the tear on the face.
There is a need for more strength.
Are you tired? Do you feel like talking to someone?
Hence, come into my embrace.
I am always by your sides,
Not allowing you to move on without me.
My gentleness, my promise, stay with you till the end.
I will not leave, each time you are sad.
My gentleness, my promise, can you hear?
Even if you do not know how to hide your pain,
Let me go through with you.
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[Cry on my shoulder]If I wanna cry.. Can I cry on your shoulder?With love,
Shavonne. (:
