"If you are to call upon My name, I will be there. you will not fight this battle alone. If you just call upon My name, I will fight the devil for you. Do not be afraid because you belong to Me."
What is actually being strong in the heart? Force yourself not to cry when you are being hurt by some one's else words? Force yourself to smile when all you want is to put on a expressionless face? I believe everyone and anyone can do that. However, who can continue to put their trust in God's goodness when all situations are against them? Who can say to the devil that he or she is never going to allow negative thoughts or even depression to set into their lives? It takes a lot of faith to do that. Are you up to it?
To be honest with everyone, i am not a perfect being. i have sinned against God and almost went into depression recently. Yet with the strength of God, i managed to stop myself in time. What took me out from the devil's trap, is the Cross. It is His Son who died on the Cross for me and took away all my sins and shames. I do not know why, but whenever I cried out to Him, whenever i could not move on anymore, the holy spirit would always take me back to the Cross and asked me, "He has died on the Cross for you and bore all your sins, shames and pain. Will you want to let him to die in vain?" And that is what keeps me going.
i would not say that i am very strong, but i know if one day my Father is ever to leave me, Jesus and the holy spirit are ever to forsake me, i will perish. Man cannot give me the strength that i want, the love that i need. No one but only Him and Him alone. What about you?
i have felt His touch, i have tasted His goodness. I want more, I want more of Him. My heart is now broken due to my past sins. Is it difficult for me to move on? i bet you never want to try. It is the love of Jesus, the Cross and the book of Psalm that encouraged me to persevere on, that strengthened my faith in Him.
To those who are oppressed and feeling weary in the heart, do not be discouraged. God is the strength of our heart and portion forever. Our Father is the all mighty king, if you just call upon His name, He will come and fight the battle for you. Imagine yourself in Jesus's embrace and He is hugging you so tightly. Yet the thing is, His body is bare but full of wounds, stripes and blood stains. He is protecting you constantly from all the evil and painful works of the devil. It is the same as He died on the cross for us. Will you let Him died in vain? _______________________________________
will you follow?
This time, i did not cry. Went to send my cousin off yesterday afternoon. Yes, my heart was feeling a little sad because i know i will miss him very badly. And i may not get to see him for the next 3 to 6 months o r even one year. Yet somehow, i know that i have to move on.
i realised that a few important people in my life have left to lead their own life and one of them is my cousin. As many of you all know, he is very close to me. Now that he had went back to Jakarta, he cannot be always there to guide me. I have been following his footsteps for the past 7 months and right now i know, it is time to follow my leader's footstep. Not that he is not doing well but i know he has his own life to lead, his own career to take care of. I have grown a lot for this past 7 months together with him, right now it is time for me to move on my own. Whatever i do, i want to make him proud of me.
Kor, Dede will be strong. And dede promised you, she will do great things that make you proud and glorifed His name. ___________________________________________
