Thats what i long for.
I won't live my life without You.I have come to a point whereby I know if He is to leave me or forsake me, worst still, all these turn out to be only a myth or a story. I will choose to die and commit suicide straight away.
I do not want to live anymore without Him.
I realised this world is a very spiteful place. Everyone is imperfect yet they expect others to be perfect, to be their ideal person. Not talking about relationships here but how many of you know what I am talking about? They just expect too much from one and another.
That was me in the past. After I known my cousin and my leader, they are the ones who kept on reminding me that people including me are imperfect and He came for those people. No doubt I can be a perfectionist at times and I used to enjoy controlling people to be who I want them to be. As time goes by, I noticed that the relationship became bitter or many misunderstanding were caused. And everything just turned out bad.
I want to change and am still changing.
No one is perfect. I have got that into my mind.What is the new charismatic move everyone is talking about? Why is everything I, me and we? Why did I feel something is missing when we sang praises? For every sentence, there is a me, I and we. Yes, the songs are very inspiring for people, youths especially, wanting to do great things for His kingdom. However, when I listen to the old praise songs by Hillsongs or other bands, I feel His presence is even stronger. As for every sentence of the songs, there is a God is great, He deserve all praise, He, He and He, not much of me, I and we.
I miss Jurong West times. The sense of family bonding is much stronger and amorous.
And I seriously miss overnight PM at Jurong West.
Right Joa? =)
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forever I will sing of love.Joa said I should blog of something happier.
Well, I guess so? Everyone reading my blog has been asking me what is wrong.
Nothing is wrong, people. I am alright and I know I can handle everything.
That person makes me happy.. I mean its really because of his one simple message that I decided to pick myself up again. Thanks for being there for me and constantly smiling at me, knowing I need that a lot. =)
Time flies very fast and I have known him for almost 2 years now. Well, those time were tough... There were times when I really want to be right next to him to comfort him, times when I just want to see his smile and times when I really want to die to kick his ass. Seriously, he needed that a lot in the past. Right?!
Haha..
Till this day, I still do not understand why I hang on to him since day 1. I have never really left his side although he had and sometimes we did not even communicate at all.
We have seen each other on our ups and downs times. And I still remember we cried on the phone twice together over some stuffs. Haha.. I guess that is why I am very sensitive to his feelings.
I used to hate him, he was a heartless moron, but now.... Haha... He is still stupid lah huh.
But I love. =)
Shavonne enjoys drinking but she is never a addicted alcoholic._________________________________________
[I wanna be with you]
Xu Ji Er
I love this song too.. =)With love,
Shavonne. (:
