Thats what i long for.
It sounds so cliche huh?
You know what? I don't know. It just seems to be very destructive to my spiritual life.
Yes, I am always doing things but everyone just gives me the feeling like, "You're not doing enough, try harder." I am not complaining here, this topic is too vague to even mention it. Well, I am really hecking now.
2 different people, 2 different views, 2 different convictions. And I have my own convictions and hell I am going to stick to them.
Seriously, people are the worst tools to handle. Up till now I still do not understand why God put specific people in my life to either bring me up or bring me down. I mean freak those who are there to bring me down. I am not a perfect being, baby. I do have my flaws. I do not need you to accept me but leaving me as who I am is the least you can do. That kinda people are such a pain in my ass. Goodness.
What I like to eat yesterday, I may hate it today -that's my character cultivated since young. Unique huh? Well, I think its a hinder to me instead but I do not care. I get sick of people very easily. Let me repeat. I get sick of people very easily, not all but a few. I cannot stand those people who think that they know me, seen me through from head to toe when they know peas about me.
Tell me how to love? Everyone now is talking about, "All things you do, do it with love. Love people fervently." Freak man. Then why do I see people especially leaders in work manipulating his or her people instead of speaking the love language to them? Is that kinda example set to let people follow? Ludicrous shit.
Whatever~
I love Jesus and He loves me too.
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Sex is not the end.
Most people say I am a quiet person, well I only speak when I think its time for me to do so. Yet most of the time I am observing and analysing people. I am more of a listener than a talker and I do get crazy and hyped up with people that are closer to me, eg: JOALIN KUAN LI YI! [Are you honour to see your name being mentioned here? Hahaha!!]
Yea, she is one of the few that can make me laugh like an idiot and crap like a crab. I love her despite she can get on my nerves at times because I can only complain to her about everything and anything. Oh man.. This is so touching right? [This statement is for Joa.] Haha..
Good Lord, I think I have changed to be more and more "alone", you know, always standing on my own views, critical in other words. With quite a few people like that in my life, no doubt I would become like them. Thank God I am still better off lah huh.
I am growing up, slowly from a very innocent, childish and young girl to a sophisticated, still young and mature woman. **Big BIG grins* I love myself now because I can think better than last time and at least I do not cry so easily anymore. Most importantly I can control my emotions well now. Frankly, I hate being emo. I hate showing the down side of me to people, I hate messaging those emo emo kinda sms to people and I just hate crying in front of people. Don't ask why, I do not know and I do not care. HA!
I am glad that I am going camp tomorrow till Saturday. So do miss me peeps.
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Some pics to show off. =D
We celebrated Joanna's birthday. =D
Isaac trying to act emo. Haha.. Crazy guy.
They were doing the banana dance. Haha..
Others.
Had our TRP PM on monday.
That's Kai Kai & Me. Cute huh? xD
I love this pic thou.
Random.
I'm happy that she is going mad. *Evil*
She was trying to adjust my hair.
Was cam-whoring with Joa on Sat. FUN!!!
And he bought me a shots. =D
Willi and me.. Haha..
Look at the 2 behind. See me? Ha!
And he is my 2nd korkor. BEN!! Haha.. Cute huh?
He likes to call himself Jay Chou.
Thats my beloved kor, CK!!
Look at the 2 behind. See me? Ha!
And he is my 2nd korkor. BEN!! Haha.. Cute huh?
He likes to call himself Jay Chou.
Thats my beloved kor, CK!!
With love,
Shavonne. (:
Shavonne. (:
