Thats what i long for.
It burns.I don't really bother anymore whether they care or not. Ever since that day, after I called him, trying to find comfort and words of affirmation, he just shoved me away. If someone who is so, so close to me can do that, what is more from others?I am not saying that I have lost faith and trust in people, but I have became more particular in how they carry out their words and how serious they are about me.Imagine, you are here telling your friend about your problems. Yes, she tries to comfort and give advices. However, at the same time she is busy changing words on her MSN nick, thinking of what to write about her current life. OR. Your another friend always tell you, she understands you and know what to do when you are upset. When the situation arises, she tries to cheer you up, yet without considering your current emotions, what you really need. She just blahs out everything, showing no interest at all. Tell me. Which one between these two, can open up your heart and makes you willingly to pour out your problems? For me, it is none.Some asked me why I do not always share openly and willingly. The reason is, "Who is willing to be serious about me? Who can really show me that they want to be there for me?"I really do not heed to explain myself further when I find that the other party fail to understand the current problems and my emotions. I feel no point doing it becuase after going one big round, we will still come back to the main dilemma.
Sometimes, it is not advices or sympathy that I need. A pair of listening ear and an understanding heart will be enough to make me smile again._____________________________________________________
With love,
Shavonne. (:
